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Monday. 10.2.06 4:54 pm
I just wasn't in the mood for it today.

What clued me in was when I started to get a headache from lack of sleep, or the smell of ethanol, as I drove home to wash my gas drenched flip-flop wearin' feet. I used to like the smell of gas. Ethanol has changed that for me. That or having one's feet drenched in it. So it was at this moment that I realized I had barely been up less than 2 hours and I had already missed my first class. So I went home like a loser and slept. I gave up and I'd do it again. There's just some days that you just have to stop fighting it. Today was one of them.

This weekend wasn't too bad, though. I had a get together Saturday with my family. The burgers RAWKED. Is it sad that that's all I remember? Wait... Oh. And Josh and Drake, from the Disney channel, remind me of Andrew and I. It was horrid. Josh was reminding me of myself when he got on the plane and two immensly obese and obnoxious people sat on either side of him. This has actually happened to me before. However, it got ridiculous when two extremely attractive girls came and sat on either side of Drake on the plane a few rows in front of Josh. A few minutes later Drake was making out with both of them. This, also, has happened to Andrew. I love that man, but MAN, do I ever wish I could have his luck. We are nothing short of brothers separated at birth. Yet, I often feel as if I'm the Bizarro to his Superman. We're so alike yet the few differences do have are significant.
Then Sunday we had church. It was quite different. I don't know how to feel about it just yet. The pastors have been attempting to find us a good building to move into, however, this has been a difficult process since our members keep disappearing and the few we do have aren't dedicated. I feel as I'm one of the handful of people who care. And yet again, I'm the only one my age. So money isn't something we have much of. But still, a pastor from another church is offering his old building to our pastors to move into. We were going to do it, but decided as of late that we wouldn't be able to afford it. The pastor from that church contacted our pastor two weeks ago. He says that he is certain that he feels that God is telling him that we are the church that is meant to take over that building and that he is willing make whatever compromises to get us in. This building would be a HUGE blessing to us. It has far more room than our make-shift church in a warehouse that we have now. There is a large sanctuary with a balcony, an dinning area with a kitchen, a building for offices, a building for childrens rooms, and A GYM with a couple rooms... for the youth. This is and has been the biggest hopes I've had as of late. However, my church members are what worry me...
But this last Sunday, to return to my main point, we had a joint service (the spanish and english congregations) at this new building, just for that day, followed by a meal at the dinning area there. It would start at 11am, when the english service usually starts. Our youth class starts at 9:30, when the spanish service starts, and ends in time for the english service. In this case, one would figure the youth would be glad that no class was going on this last Sunday, since no spanish service was to happen. But to my surprise, my youth begged for us to have class still. I obviously agreed. We had it at our usually place at the usual time and had to go pick up most of the kids. Luckly, my friend Kristina, who has started attending my church, spent the previous night in our "den/guest room/my old room" and was able to help picking up kids in her car. Most of them were friends of the usual attendees. I was quite content! After our class we headed over to the other building. After the service we went over to the dinning area. And there was a cake that said "Happy Birthday Aldo". Turns out that whole meal afterwards was for me in the first place. I was stunned. I won't lie, I held back tears. Stinkin kindness and love... I always wonder if they realize JUST how much I do care about them. They are my family, through and through. The blood we share in common is not the kind that runs through our veins, but the kind that was spilt for us.

So, overall it should have been a wonderful weekend. Yet, every night, just before I fall asleep... I realize just how sad I am. I don't feel empty. I feel as if I was betrayed. As if I'm not living. I'm surviving. I don't know how to explain it. But I just don't feel quite there anymore. Almost as if every day is a dream. Wake up the next day and it's just as meaningless as the rest of the previous days.
Where has my heart gone, I wonder?

I've decided. I'm going to find a way to North Carolina. I'm going this month. If not be Thanksgiving, for sure. I want to see Wake Forest. I want to see this place that seems to promise what little hope there may be, just like my youth seem to promise what little hope there may be for my church, whether anyone realizes it or not.
4 Comments.


I've never been to a church with the half spanish/half english services. What denomination is it?
» Dilated on 2006-10-02 05:55:42

I'll keep your words of wisdom in mind when I see her again later today.

Southern baptist.. I've been attending a southern baptist church ever since I moved from the Metroplex to San Antonio. ' Crosswords Baptist Church,' starring John Hagee. I've got mixed feelings about the church 'cause the messages are good but the guy spits out so much BS about crime in America rising and other scare tactics, so I'm not sure if I really wanna' stick with it.

» Dilated on 2006-10-02 06:07:11

Primo advice! I did indeed talk to him today and it went very well. We agreed to stay friends no matter what happens. As it turns out, I didn't need to worry half as much as I did. Woopssss.


And by the way, that's so cool that you have Spanish and English service. A town near me recently banned the use of Spanish. What the heck... that doesn't seem like it should be possible in America!!


You know, if the way you talk about your religious family is any indication, you may not have so far to look for that heart of yours. :)
» amy on 2006-10-02 11:32:43

from the looks of these comments your handing out Aldo Advice :)

I knew you'd fit right in over heeeeeere

and i think all you can do at this point is pray that God will make his will on the situation of where to settle your church obvious to whomever needs to know in order to make it happen. just because he doesn't show you the plan too doesn't mean it's not his.
» crochetmama on 2006-10-03 09:38:44

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