Inspiring movies really should make one feel inspired.

That's definitely not what's been happening recently. Ever since... Well, back in the day the movie Bruce Almighty always inspired me to stop bitching about things and really start doing things for the better. Things are different now. I tried watching it once after the aftermath. I had to go to the bathroom to cry near the end. Couldn't cut it, I guess. It was embarassing when one of my youth walked in on me. I just watched it again. Nope not any better. I feel torn. Like part of me is glad about the whole message of the movie. Then there's this other part of me that is so upset. I guess I'm just that selfish, you know. "What is you trully want?" asks Morgan Freeman as God. "Grace..." responds Jim Carrey as Bruce in refferrence to his girlfriend. "You want her back?" asks God. "No... I want her to be happy" was what Bruce responded.
She's happy now. I'm not sure what I want now, anymore. But I know that I did want her back. I always wanted her back...
Save for the one moment I was going to let her go. How cruel of a moment that was. What did that mean? It meant nothing.
All that I share with you now has no emotion. I've said all of this so many times that I've learned to lock it all in. I figure that's what it is anyways.
But if it's so wrong to have wanted her back for selfish reasons why do others get that? Why do others get that happy ending?


I need to go for a walk. They used to calm me down. I know this one won't. But at least I'll lose some of the fat I gained last night.

I'm still angry. I'm still pissed. I need out.

A couple of movies inspired me to make things better but it didn't really make everything better. If walking doesn't work, jogging/running will help.
» Nuttz on 2007-01-08 11:00:30

I like you blog:) - very intrested stuff you got here! LoL - come visit mine sometime.
» AmbrosiaB on 2007-01-09 02:18:48

Thanks bro, its hard for me to eat right now. Nothing wants to go down. And I can't really hang out with friends because they're all in long beach, and I work in MV five days, so I don't have friends around here or anything. = thanks for being around tho. Not literally but NuTang is close enough. As for ur situation, I've been through my fair shares also, I guess life is fucked up that way but we gotta work through it somehow. Sometimes, movies are all about fantasy happy endings that people can't have. That's why I can't stand some because they mock people.


P.S.

I beat you to it, so that means you need to pick another song. xP
» PsychoEnigma on 2007-01-09 02:50:31

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