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Unfinished Business
Monday. 7.23.07 12:30 am
A year completed.

That's what it seems like. An end to an era.
What's next? One can only guess...

I've completed most of what I've wanted to do with great satisfaction:

1. I have spent more time with my mom. Arguments included. She's even starting to see the adult that I've become, despite her distaste for it.

2. I have regained footing in my priorities. In specific educationally.

3. I have ditched unnecessary baggage. Tons and tons of it. With a lil' help here and there from some wonderful people.

4. I have seen that I trully CAN fall in love again, despite it's deligence in alluding me.

5. I have done as much as I possibly can for my youth. And THEN some.


So, everything looks to be in an upswing.



But despite this, I know ache for someone.
Physically ACHE.

This person is loving, brave, incredibly close to God, slow to anger, responsible, wise, with high morals, good looking, and a few more wonderful traits. Basically everything that I would describe as near perfection.
I want this person. Like nothing else. And I want everyone to recognize this person. Well... at least everyone close to me. Why? Because I want to be this person. The person I ache for is me. My future self. I desperately crave to be a better person. And I face and will face many challenges in this, but hopefully I'll reach that place someday.

'Till then, I have some unfinished business to do. Starting with a church.

John 15:12-13
4 Comments.


So, life is pretty decent? That's good...

[You need to start your NWF battle challenges already!]
» randomjunk on 2007-07-23 01:48:14

4. I have seen that I trully CAN fall in love again, despite it's deligence in alluding me.
Best line.


I know what you mean about wanting to be closer to God. My family goes to a church in Mansfield, one of those old south, african-ameriacn baptist churches. I go every once in a while when I am in town, and every time I go I can't help but feel envious of those who really feel the spirit. I got the rationale behind my faith, I got the faith, but the spirit is what is alluding me; I didn't realize how much til this morning when this woman who was young in her faith was moved. The Choir was singing two words over and over again " oh, jesus. Ooooh, Jeee-sus.. Ooooh, Jesus. " in different styles and everyone was swept up in the commotion, 'ya know?

Anyway, this woman... she was moved. She had her hands in the air and was singing along with everyone else and then she just started yelling really loud and convulsing and fell back and a few people walked over to her and acted all calm, like that kind of stuff happened in church all the time.

Not to me. :-
» Dilated on 2007-07-23 02:05:36

Sorry for the super long comment.
» Dilated on 2007-07-23 02:05:43

Glad to hear your in the right direction!
» lyndeep on 2007-07-24 06:30:01

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